Have O Blood So, my blood type is O, and my antibodies are listed currently at 64. I have included a picture of me and the baby as you requested, as for a little something about our lives; here goes. Back in January 2002, I had to go back to Alberta to be with my mother who was dying from colon cancer after being diagnosed at Christmas 2001. I stayed for two weeks and had left the baby behind as it just seemed to to be the right thing to do at the time. I was there for two weeks, both for her passing and then of course, for her funeral. When I returned that Thursday nite, everything was ok. The next day however, when my fabulous ex husband came home from work, he seemed to be wickedly overstressed and a huge fight ensued. It was at the point after he threatened to rip out my dialysis catheter, that I knew I had to take the baby and leave. We did; and he decided that the best thing for him to do to avoid being arrested for domestic assault was to stab himself in the chest. He is fine now, but I knew that if I hadn’t gotten out of there when I did, I do believe that he would have killed all three of us. I took the baby, and have since managed to go from having no job, no money, a two year old, and a major disability; to being decently financially stable and being able to care for my girl. There have been some tough times. I had a parathyroidectomey this last April, and haven’t been quite right ever since. I am having a hard time keeping a job as I seem to be ill quite a lot since then; but I keep pushing and doing what I can to make ends meet. I raised her completely by myself for the last four years as I felt it was more important for me to make sure that she was happy and well adjusted then it was for me to start dating anyone. My family, though large, tend to be rather selfish people. I admit that growing up, I was not the best person in the world, but I guess I don’t understand how they can turn their backs on me when I need them most. Or maybe it could be that they just don’t realize how important a transplant could be. Not sure. They are however, nowhere to be found when I need help, be it financial or otherwise. Makes me quite sad considering the straits I have been in at certain points in the last four years. I have been on Dialysis since November of 2000; six months to the day that Gabe was born. The first two years were tough, my body just did not like being on dialysis. It was painful and took over an hour at certain times. Annoying. It has since gotten better as my system adjusts to it; but as the dialysis goes on, there seems to be other issues coming into play. I have developed seizures (both complex partial and grand mal) and my bloodwork never wants to be the way it should. I work hard and have no problem with working, but as I said, I am finding it harder and harder to keep going. I certainly need a new kidney the most, but I also need financial help too. Because of my lack of work in the past year ( I have lost two jobs because of illness), I am currently living off of a small amount of disability and credit; and I know that I can’t keep living like this. I am terrified that if they call me to get the transplant I will have to turn them down because there is no way I could afford to be off of work completely for such a long period of time right now. I am out of options and I just don’t know what to do about this anymore. That’s why I turned to you. I am hoping and praying that you can help in this great time of need so that I can keep going and hopefully watch my baby grow up to be the absolutely beautiful person I know she is going to be. It breaks me inside (and I admit that it is the only thing that has broken me so far) to think that I may have to leave her before she is ready or can handle it. I don’t want to die yet, she is too important to me for that to happen. I have an excellent medical team both here and in the US; but they can only do so much. I know that God would never give me more, either mentally nor physically; than I could handle, but there are days when I wonder why in the world He would throw so muh at me. I realize that that is just self pity, and that is so not what I am about; I just occasssionally lose sight of the light at the end of the tunnel. So, I have rambled on for you. I hope that you can find what you need here. I can be found at goddessangelique@shaw.ca Again, I thank you for your help. I don’t think you will ever know how much this means to me, nor do I think that I would ever be able to express how grateful I am for your help. But thank you so much from ever piece of my being. Sincerely, Angelique SUBMITTED BY: goddessangelique@shaw.ca POSTED: 02/02/07